223 miles

I drove 223 miles.
With a full tank
And a tight bladder
Stole my mother's car.
Lied to my friends.
To tell him how much I loved him.
And, right when I was about to say it
I realized that I couldn't say it

He texted me two days after Valentine's day, asking if I had any plans for the weekend. Driving to the Garden State wasn't on my agenda, but when he texted me to attend some college party… I had to do it, right?

After 4 hours.
With 2 water bottles, and listening to the entire Let It Be album on repeat, I arrived.

He wore the Lucky Brand jeans I gave him for his birthday.
He smelled like fresh laundry.
We sipped. We laughed.

And, just like that, it felt as if we were 16 again.

it felt right.

And, right then and there, I wanted to tell him everything.

But I didn't.

And, now I'm in Thailand, and he is married to his job.

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August 2012
Bangkok, Thailand
Age 22